Only after loving do you realize the weight of love.

 What else can I say?

I don't even know what kind of feeling is love. I'm changing

the questions you raised. I'm carefully remembering what you said. Sometimes, I really don't know what to do . How can I ensure I don't miss out on love? I 'm stingy with my love. I'm afraid to give my love. This isn't because I'm heartless. On the contrary , it's because once I'm serious, once I'm in love, I lose the ability to protect myself. I don't like being sensitive , I don't like being weak , I don't like being sentimental, I don't like being pretentious. But once I start to love you seriously, all these flaws that I hate and avoid will follow me like a shadow. I don't like that version of myself. I'm even more afraid that you won't like that version of me. So, I don't think about anything, I don't give anything, I just greedily enjoy the love and tolerance you give me. Only then do I feel safe. Zero-degree water is cold and hard, and it hurts... For others , I can protect myself. I refuse the sunlight because I don't want to melt , I do n't want to drift with the tide, I don't want to be someone else's appendage , I don't want to be without my own will. But I can't. I can postpone my melting, but I can't change my fate of melting. Now, I'm just a handful of water, a handful of water that's almost melted but still struggling. My heart is still hard, but the edges around me have been melted into water . If one day you don't want to drink water anymore, then please restore me to my former state. Don't let me lose my original self. Ice melts because of love , boils because of love . Then, the boiling water scalded you, so you left. The water freezes back into ice. However , the water that has already melted , no matter how hard it tries , can never return to its original state because the sunlight takes away the water vapor, just as you invaded my heart and took away my soul.

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